The girl of my dreams died last night.
I was there as she took her last breath,
Closed her eyes,
And then passed away.
She died without any pain,
And without any suffering.
I would like to think that it was quick and painless,
But the unfortunate truth was she had been dying a slow death for the last twenty years.
In fact the only thing that had kept her alive was my stubborn refusal to give up on her.
I fought to hold on to her with every breath.
I vowed that I would never let her go
And never allow her to leave me.
But no matter how strong you are,
You cannot hold on to a dream forever.
I will love her for the rest of my life,
That isn’t a choice,
However, I know I can no longer keep her with me.
I will miss you,
Like a drowning man misses oxygen,
But from now on, when I close my eyes you will no longer be there,
Just like you haven’t been with my eyes open for more years than I care to remember.
I thank you for keeping me safe and warm through long, dark, cold winter nights.
I thank you for keeping me sane through the endless emptiness my heart has suffered,
And I thank you, even though you were the construct of the woman I really love, for giving me someone,
Something, for me to pour my love into.
Girl of my dreams, rest in peace
Your life may have been short
But without you, I would have had no life at all.